Compassion beyond anything I’d ever known

A year ago, something so beautiful and so difficult happened— it rippled through everyone involved and changed us forever. I took a trip to Thailand and attended a week long breathwork class. There, I experienced something I can only describe as compassion beyond anything I’d ever known.

I can’t really explain the process other than that I was overcome with deep compassion. I saw myself from outside myself. I felt compassion for myself. I saw all my emotions and felt so much love for myself – all the love that had ever been directed toward me—every gentle thought, every quiet prayer. The fears and judgments I’d imagined all dissolved. What remained, what surrounded me, was love. Just love.

And the thing is I can still tune into this. When I feel lost in thought, emotion, ‘fog’. I can escape through meditation.

Meditation lifts me. It surrounds me with a vibrational hug. I see a brilliant white light and feel a warmth wrapped around me. I feel like I’m standing at heaven’s gates and being welcomed in—with unconditional love. All other feeling melts away.

It’s in meditation that I feel a resonance of pure, infinite peace. It makes me think of the scene in City of Angels when all the angels gather to feel and hear God in the sunrise. A hug made of sound, surrounding from every direction. And this is available to all of us.

And the more I tune into this vibration the more I experience it, in the voice of Maria Callas, in the look on my dog’s face, in the softness of my duvet cover, in the feeling of my skin. God is everywhere. And we can always tune into compassion beyond our comprehension. You are not only forgiven for everything you’ve ever done, you are loved all the more.